In keeping with the story of David facing the Philistines’ giant (I Samuel 17:22-58), I wanted to share with you my thoughts on what we all can learn from the young shepherd boy with the heart of a king. What has to be kept in mind is that David, the youngest son of Jesse, had already been anointed to be king by Samuel. David had also soothed Saul’s depression by playing his lyre for him until the evil spirit left him (1 Samuel 16:14-23). So Saul knew of David’s youth, his profession as a protector of his sheep and even his physical appearance. So now this meek young man has become the adored slayer of giants. True it was only one giant, but David was widely admired by the children of Israel. Because Saul’s armor was not part of what David carried into the battle, David used Goliath’s own sword to behead him to take to King Saul. After presenting Saul with the head of the slain giant, he simply returned to tend his sheep. He had a role in the family to fulfill and had only wandered into the battle when he was taking food to his brothers who were in the king’s army, as directed by his father. So David did not allow his accomplishment to change who he was in his heart or in his family. How are we after a battle with Satan? Do we return to what the Lord wants us to do, or do we lose our way in human pride. We know for a fact that later in life David allowed sin to enter his life, and we do the same. But we do also experience victories. Having faced the “cancer giant” in my life, I am keenly aware that I am not the same, physically or spiritually. The weapons, or stones, used to defeat the physical cancer, have now become the weapons of my life. David returned to tending his sheep, I returned to providing for my family, working, and fulfilling the family roles that I have chosen for myself, with God’s leading. David knew his own strength and was secure in what he did while I have had to learn that kind of confidence. I asked God last week to confirm my calling to write my book, to continue my blog and stay the course. Through participating in the Beth Moore online Bible Study in the Women’s Bible Cafe®, I became aware of how important it is for us to know we are doing EXACTLY what God has directed us to do. If you have read my book by now, Asking What: No More Whys, Soaring on Eagles Wings Defeating Life’s Labels, Anger and Cancer, you know that I know what I am to do by the confirmation of knowing that I have reached one person through the sharing of my story of how I needed to grow my faith. That certainty has not changed, but the way I do it or the way I need to accomplish obedience could change. I struggle with a new giant, self doubt. Satan and I were officially at war, and I had my five smooth stones. So I listed seven items that I had felt were God’s words to me and asked God to differentiate for me, the difference between His calling and possibly my selfish desires to prove to the world that I am here. It was very overwhelming to me. I went to college at two different times in my life – ten years apart. College was an opportunity to improve my ability to provide for my family, a security for the future. Why the doubt – because I wanted to prove to people in my past that I had the right to pursue an education, so there could have been selfish motives in my actions. Seven items were on the list, quickly reduced by three because I knew I had heard God’s voice in my heart directing my path. But my book and the blog was different than what college had provided and prepared me to do. These were expensive undertakings ($$$) and the devil had presented to me the thought that I had wasted precious resources, time and money. It appeared to be a good argument. In the study of Jeremiah, I had just finished studying chapter 1 and the words from God to Jeremiah had moved me to seek affirmation (Jeremiah 1:5-8). Leaving it with God to show me I was on the right path, I prayed and thought this will be a long wait because my heart was troubled about the possibilities that had led to the sin of doubt. Within 18 hours of making the entry into my notebook, I had the truth presented to me, in writing. It was once again one person, just as my prayer in Chapter 7 of my book, just as God had answered that it would be. God does not waste time and as His servant, I know that I have not wasted my time or resources in this path I am now on. Disappointments ave been in my heart for a few weeks, they were part of the items on the list I had made and I perceived those disappointments as resulting from the desires of my heart and not necessarily what God had intended for me to do. That is not the truth, so once again the stones that I have chosen as my life’s weapons did not fail me. I prayed, had faith that God would hear me, answer me in His time and He would strengthen me when I became weary. That dread that brought on the doubt, frustration and an overwhelming fear that I had taken the reins away from God was the same “bully” that David had faced. I had the tools, I have my faith and now I also have confirmation of His will for my life. So I have chosen a new routine to my Bible Study, I write down my prayer to God and go back and date (even write down the time) of the confirmation and then thank God, praise Him for His work in my life and stay the course. Now I can tend my sheep.